I will live , I live than others more well!

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Matter should say from January 94 thatITField. It is that two persons do jointly to just begin , afterwards, have again added to 3 investors. For 95 years, cooperation fails thoroughly, I buy all stocks of under " in " resolutely. This share is the out of date accessory that some of old computers of prototype of a machine and a big piles cannot sell in time , still having those package boxes flatten consume material.

Go through the resettlement of battalion headquarters, I change profession wholesale takes duplicating paper , print paper and facsimile paper, and with this, it is the company's income of main business. The reason of choosing this has only one, that is because these manufacturers are willing to supply to me to be commissioned to sell, separate month knot Zhang, not use my own pad one to divide money. I think this gives me always in day get rich opportunity, take the first batch of business money, I go to the big advertisement on newspaper media with full interest , have taken the first official business of whole city open to use paper supermarket. It is to sell the paper of 1 or 2 kinds only because of other sellers to say that is first, I, the paper of what brand has , is not to blow groundlessly known as Shanghai beach paper kind of corpus , is that the kind of those papers in " Shanghai industrial wholesale market " is also not as many I.

To beg , it is huge to cause a sensation of effect, I entrust post office to have printed ten thousands of advertising postcards, to each profession of whole city , each unit" carpet type" land send. Each error 3 days, is the advertising flat of a sack sends to go post office. Post office accepts us, is big household, sack does not feel like to open to count , always say the quantity of mail by ourselves. Since sending address, it is to offer according to telephone book company, it is come out that self uses computer again to print , there are a lot invalid address, it is repetitive and even more a lot of. I finally a barrier, because mail is really too many, is impossible 11 thin Jian, smooth mistake sends a little hair-cut shop quilt return have 4. " crack! " telephone book company can still make up the number really, in the company's register of a big layer upon layer, have squeezed in unexpectedly into trivial little shop. And as soon as squeezing in to squeeze in , it is four. This is discovered by me, the false intelligence of having not discovered is more.

Efficiency is too low, I do the colored advertisement of inside back cover on the merchandise message newspaper that some private groups manage. Do one charge 1700. It is "color" to decide in advance, result publication comes out , but on my dark word advertisement commercial, marking the line of some of colors, it is colored. It is paste person simply! Let one to say normally that is to be able to enjoy larger preferential policy by addition of member. I conform to written instruction , have remited the annual cost of 2400 Yuan. As a result, receipt is still confiscated , that little dozen little noisy editor department dissolves to go to person , air dies I.

My heart does not be still died , have emploied all funds on account , borrow seat in the entire hall of shop front belonged to by the Shanghai letter company of 10 thousand, alone a person carries big flag. " Shanghai first class Ao Fei Si handles official business to use paper and equipment appliance show , sell meeting" under one of my order, happy ocean land have convened. Do not say in other media to throw money, " smooth new people evening paper " do coherent fence advertisement, have abandoned 12 thousand Yuan. The leading enterprise of Shanghai paper trip comes to attend. Have the mood teacher of all these to move many bearing will draw out money. Go to show to sell can finish clearance( the money of ginseng show customer remit into this firm in account, all expense pays for others first by me), deliberately the boss of the letter company of 10 thousand does not see. Few go through ask about , this boss that invites from outside province city again flees to return to other places have gone , his female finance simultaneouslythe secretary also disappears at the same time together. I will appeal! May I this is decimal eye, to boss catching up to demand repayment affir one helps , it still has the compatriot that comes in bank.

Taiwan sets up , open the paper field magnate golden smooth group of factory in Singapore, feel that Shanghai is that one uses the market with great paper potentiality. So, wave great master to march to continent market , employ the fund of super 100 million Yuan to open factory in Suzhou. Taking the responsibility for the duplicating paper of Shanghai region sale special pipe Yuan pull me to have meal , say that my person has good credit , public praise also may, is willing to support me energetically. For " this one may ", I and my friend hit the check of a 200 thousand Yuan( allegedly this check is current annual total sale error must golden smooth group company develop business in Shanghai to receive the first check entered ).

New brand though the material of base paper is very good, but in Shanghai after all, it is that new face has no market share, and the advertising intensity of manufacturer has not again caught up with in time. Can do nothing about it , I have to draw out money first with friend, puting in the advertising cost sales of one side. Manufacturer takes off batch price again to occupy market as soon as possible, is some and some , lose capital to sell , but condition is necessary current knot. It is a bundle ofA4Duplicating paper and other channel come in paper batch price differs 5 Yuan do not say , paper quality more can not same than. From this, having caused whole Shanghai paper businesses bring cash, as soon as truck a truck is mad to pick up goods , I also return from having called a kilocalorie vehicle.

Have not made 10 days, manufacturer storehouse one leaves empty ( have a kind of saying is manufacturer worries to take this payment still bank due loan). It is little that the paper product increase of all fronts that manufacturer soon has for announcing also rises. Seller is one after another worried, and it is proud that other produces the manufacturer of duplicating paper, because they have sold with the own paper case paper that has wraped " golden light" to sell specially.

It is also near, manufacturer drops in price again, trade companies are also a burst and happy , are plenty of to eat to enter, then, manufacturer is also to rise again. So, rise falls , the dealers of whole city cannot bear , no a person is willing to be agency again , picks up own original brand one after another later again. But is too late , nearly have direct user do not reply. Have used good paper, bad paper would not use anyhow. Trade companies feel to sell " golden light" paper does not make money , do not make money not do. Some shrewd users call according to the telephone number on paper case to manufacturer, manufacturer sales section receives telephone whole army sends out. Not! It is that whole city sends out.

I also quit agency. Deduct freight charges and advertising cost finally and some die Zhang, have not gained what money unexpectedly. This is not major , is that my customer has run away one after another mainly, unless I give their price and is originally the same. I can't do this point, but the manufacturer of " Jin light " can accomplish , they take the opportunity to lift into. My heavy first unit has become the "captive" of their manufacturer basically.

Busy do not make money for some years, have no confidence to do again to go down, my agent also has no confidence also , withdraws one after another to me to press payment. So, I decide to change investment direction , extend the wholesale of computer repair business and overall abandonment paper kind. Saying ," give up " actually also is a kind of have no way out choice, because of time a length, those big money advertisement strives for with great difficulty come to use paper big household, know that I am that one moves brick person , have contacted secretly with manufacturer. Certainly, also do not be completely, it is not vegetarian to supply in my manufacturer, when their factory son business is depressing, recall certain one day to help me have directly sent the unit of goods. So, style clerk develops underground campaign , throws into the unit of opposite side. Once I know the mood teacher of this matter to move , am many to reproach , big boss promptly low head stoops land say: " misunderstanding! " then buttocks one turns , for subordinate say: " as! So snatch. "

Have to, I change profession

I have said that the young technical teacher technology that I not know for computer technology and invite is wise, but this fellow the brain is also the same and wise. The back I count little difference open do not say , go to work to be often late. Say his few sentences , have 100 reasons always to reply me. Think , so long as delivering me, the matter treated is made , I also have to error just error, pipe its eye has have is little. Namely: I open a eye , close a eye.

Deliberately this fellow is insatiable , self-restraining have technology, work hangs son Lang when , point also does not be absorbed. That time, I tape he goes a more far unit network. He says that will go to the little shop with opposite factory to buy to wrap smoke,since he works to half. Just return well for a long time, first sentence words are to want me to also go to little shop one time( some time he is boss I am partner ). Say that is to have liked a girl in little shop just now , have now done the telephone of little shop , want to call to ask her to play. And let me see the face department expression of that girl in any case in little shop when he calls. It is really unpresentable! That girl says clearly in telephone that self has had boy friend , and even says that is three, this fellow just gives up hope. However, unceasing blame and the still unceasing sigh in mouth I, blaming me do not let him work here early.

Have not made one month, this fellow has mentioned friend still. Talk about girl friend I have no right to interfere , problem is one talks to at the same time talk two. The seed daytime No. 1 is arranged to meet , meet in seed evening No. 2. Think all day long how best unified arrangement arranges my daily work to throw one side. Each return me to call him go out to repair computer , he carries always I, bring "No. 1" secretly. The user unit of opposite side that does not know the facts still thinks that our company opens matrimonial agency simultaneously.

Sometimes, have not gone out , "No. 1" will seek to visit , when my shop one takes often being the most day , eat Ba lunch is just disgruntled to leave. I say this fellow, he replies justly and forcefully: " this not is rough good Ma, lane beauty sits in shop. Amount can still increase popularity. "

" return popularity?

That time, "No. 1" smells peculiar smell , feels man to hesitate , depress would not go to go to work. Fear that unit lead speaks ( not fear to deduct bonus), this fellow hands over me telephone can unexpectedly , lets me to lower voice , pretends to be the father of girl, calling to the head of girl unit ask leave of absence , lose him to think that reach.

At last one day, "No.2" has known this matter, she also does not blame own male friend , but is to say that to see to shameless some expression of " No. 1 ", place is chosen in my shop. Why? My shop is duel site! Will pull hair , bite skill to fight , please be away from my shop far point. Otherwise, no matter any is defeated , can sit surely in my shop entrance cries loudly , isn't that will draw a big gang the person of unclear truth surrounds my shop, lane not good "< xml:namespace prefix=st1 ns="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags"/>< chmetcnv w:st=on unitname=unitname鈥?sourcevalue=110 hasspace=False negative=False numbertype=1 tcsc=0>110"< chmetcnv/>Can still

Right now, this fellow says promptly for me: " do not be all right! Will make human life! " language has not said yet, person flies to go normally and has fallen. Happening to have customer hold a computer to repair , hear that he lets "human life" to dash in mouth and goes , unclear truth says: " the barrier day of human life. I come still tomorrow again to repair computer! "

Certainly, guest has seen again

Say that is these , for me return not is Chu heart Chu the matter of lung. My biggest pain lies in 95 and 96 years, that is my life most matter , is most gloomy , most one year of suffering. Is before this , I have lived never so still experience quilt person falls down to well to take off the taste of stone.

In that year, I am honest25%Financing 100 thousand Yuan, then, lift advertisement. A road advertising 6000 Yuan of the top of a wall has rinsed 10 white base blue word sea newspapers not again on the wall that calls nonnative to use the time of in the morning and evening in road with paint, a poster 100 Yuan, 10 1000 Yuans. The door of The Ministry of Commerce and Industry is not vegetarian certainly , has not backward action, use immediately picture machine take off poster racket , according to the telephone on poster, call me , taking photograph to ask me pat, is clear and non-sharpness. Really, it has clear ten point. Clear is good: Punish money, is minimum to take board 1000 Yuan, have not bargained room.

I sink when matter, spend money like water , play all the same everywhere. With my partner that, decide to take the responsibility for management door shop to manage , may he always does not go to hillock. So, storehouse has no specialized personnel to be in charge of , business money is registered according to the money in the Miss pocket of retail sales, draw out amount to register amount. The end of month never coils Zhang, end of the year has not also been total and a plate of to count , all are muddleheaded to live.

Then, my luck has bad luck is thorough, have sold 300 pirated software compact disks quilt procuratorate has punished 30 thousand Yuan( procuratorate is also in charge of this matter is the characteristic of that times, actually Shanghai beach sells the pirated software of compact disk is far more than have a me? More moreover I have not also done in a big way, prosperously). Then, that partner in company takes the opportunity the letter of the back to" abandon justice" , turns to go to my forces , return " turn to go " I a all funds in bank. In company, leave a female business manager it has been without clerk to be responsible for with me and woman may be in charge of. In distracted see distractedly to begin a big debt sheet of layer upon layer, it may say if I have no speech. Calculate is done in vain in this few years not, still fall to owe the 10 ten thousands of Yuans of foreign debt.

In day, it is which! This is a not little number , is surely a fearful astronomical figure for a work salary clan. Company has been that capital does not compensate for debt, business also suffers a disastrous decline. Only eye one closes will worry about that receive to be afraid of , as soon as hearing the telephone sound of the tinkle of bells on table, will palpitate with fear , that is time of a kind of what flavour!

Then, my mood will have have badly spoil; Then, my complete cognition goes to a bankruptcy capitalist why will select to jump at desperate time building suicide; It is not time that a man passes that then, I experience really to be in distress for time of person, will have many low Wei have many low Wei, submit to humiliation still only submiting to humiliation; Then, I hate to enter business sea; Then, I discovery I go into business train of thought has made big problem.

These all monstrous faults not is commited for me by others, and is caused because of my own scoundrel a hand. I dig soil , one side flows out tear land bury to self. It is grieved! The biggest grief of man finds not too that self is not a man, and it is that one leaves one breath only , fall soon abyss , dare not still see the person of a glance later.

Creditors see me to be in distress , visit one after another to demand repayment , news, propagate than Reuters still rapid. I no 100 reasons blame they the expression of urgent roar roar; And they have no 1000 reasons also, have low tune for me25%The possibility

In which, a female creditor is still clever, I return money with my bank check to her. She suggests unexpectedly to me that the time of 3 days that will carry out check is also calculated in interest. One even more bullies my receipt aggravating the situation by to sink to write it is clear, must I take advantage of interest rate for 12 months, it is actual and many to have pulled my interest of 2 months.

These creditors think of money to think that is crazy, pipe you cry for day cry land , scold dad to scold mother , it is to accept RMB only. Does this world how to so change taste? If I go bankrupt if announcing , what to be done? But who comes to be in charge of you is in distress do not be in distress. Do not return money, court goes up see.

I have said that my person values credit. Is in debt money, it is perfectly justified. Who calls self to do have spoilt business, it is bad to pound have meal pot. I this is to suffer from own actions! I fill a most a bottle of liquor in stomach , have then hit own a notes slap ruthlessly. I am drunk, not! I have woken up. I grab with my close desperate hand, let to say loudly to depressing night: " I will live! I live than others more well! "

Somebody says: " failure is afraid of what? WhatMay do is really so simple? Think , it has been

So, it is unwell to be doomed in my time, this have profit to want at once return that demand to visit debt. This kind of feeling is very dazed, also very numb, a and pitch-dark, have not fallen the person of too big fall will not have " this kind of dazed " and numb feeling He!

I as if when long barrier on the road wander person, do not know when can see furthest end. Poet Yan different Zeng Zuo Shi road: " the land of the ends of the world angle lets sometimes, only lovesickness has no furthest end ". Right now, my feeling is: " the land of the ends of the world angle lets sometimes, only repay a debt to have no to let issue. "

Want to cry to have no tear , want to turn book to have no fund , I can only pain drinks self Yun this cup of next bitter wine. Nobody comes to comfort me is in dire straits heart, also nobody hears that I chant in a low voice in little house to sing: " road boundless it repairs Xi, I will be about and repay a debt. . . . . . "

Road is: " person

I have not fallen!ITMarket does not believe that tear is the same. I must stand to face reality , I do not stand to explain that I am a useless coward. I can not fall in the sight of others freezing irony and burning satire, I also do do not go to this finish whenITThe dream of market dependant livelihood,

This words describe some pity , but I have attended to to be not as good as face. I will live as happy son. I begin to behave again, no matter being a pitiful person, or one has no the person of reputation, I will subsist tenaciously only, but for the person of death. I seek and summarize me in the cause of failure and the weakness in business sea with great efforts. I give self a strong heart needle on dozen , have opened a effective prescription, paste in the center center of wall.

It is painful to think pain surely, when I find me suddenly, it is too romantic to go into business , too idealism. Before action goes into business always start writing rod I, because too much for the confidence of other person and management goes up let pass unchecked too much, still have asITMarket is various and too optimistic

The effort via some years, I at last miracle land alive error has come. It is some to say that "effort" tone is light and weak , in which " go back to dream only since night, not know is in the ends of the world " sad feeling is only in distress person talent deep cognition. Nobody can think of me in have pocket Luo the only money of 11 Yuan " dozen " deliver goods , have gone to the unit entrance of opposite side to see that taximeter will soon be jumped on 12 Yuan , hurry to call parking, borrow the tricycle of opposite side again pull goods to go in , then, go to return company. Have again, come out in that cold wind biting cold night, from a friend home, end class bus has been gone to open. Think of " dozen ", feeling pocket have only the money of 9 Yuan , have to go to go home , it is not my honorable history to have all these, is I suffer from own actions He!

When I am rich, have spent day wine land , seek to have fun joyfully( play woman to have no that gall bladder ), RMB when tangerine leather littering aly, eyelid Zha also not Zha. Now, thinking back to seem is doing a nightmare He! I can't help lose sound to shout: " that is the RMB that I earn , my money earned by hard toil! "

The road looked back upon , though, leave some lines of footprints only, may I feeling resembles have gone through many times jagged bumpy mill Li. From the years of suffering, it is winding to wade and comes , in face of Zuo night Gang Gang bitter long wind, I may talk about rich theory high in I buy the financial mansion commercial building of official business of property right at last, write my history of yesterday , talk about my business study; May also open my private car calmly , recall past dream. I know that the road of tomorrow still grows very much, if do not hold self well; Hold today , can still go to old way tomorrow; Can still commit same mistake. Holding is I when business nautical mile the two most deep words realized. I will not also forget forever that I have torn that sentence words that heart split lung shout passes: " I work goes down! I live than others more well! "