Last century the later stage of 80 decade , my Zeng Zheng Er 8 goes through land go to society go up seek the woman of some kinds of key occupations to make a social investigation , the knowledge of visiting them for marriage and family. Report comes out afterwards, give " a Wen Wei Po " special write Yuan. A he are little to alter , article has appeared in the newspapaer , full page and title are one: " female marriage surface surface sight ". His signature row when is former, after my signature when, position is around to have not concerned. I take the writer's remuneration of 20 Yuan, it is a burst and happy , after all, this is the first writer's remuneration that I get for writing article; This is also that my virgin does He.
When happy mood accompany , I have again made once for the man of few big professions, have the society of depth comparatively to investigate , having melted with many time complete this survey report at last. Give that special after write Yuan, he lets to write well. Sink how long, article publishes again on "Wen Wei Po". This time, article content has no to alter , but title is changed , is also a full page. However, the article of this time may have no my signature after can follow lucky tightly when, have only him one person name appears in the newspapaer. Ask its reason, reply set type Yuan carelessness gives omission. Is table apology, this one special write Yuan add my money of 10 Yuan specially writer's remuneration.
Do not haggle over with it, I contribute writing from. I make effort to write some of diligently make, difference throws to send in Shanghai " youth generation " with" modern family". Have not made 2 months , take the charge of the editor-in-chief " youth generation"< xml:namespace prefix=st1 ns="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags"/>< personname w:st=on productid=澶忕敾>Summer< personname/>Mr has replied to me, the writing style that says me may, but angle need to still alter to change. It is written a letter to us also that" modern family" edit department, saying my article to write get may, see is not quite clear, need to transcribe again. I know me the word of composition is not quite good always, always showing is is askew to turn and sink to eat appearance of full meal. Therefore, it is a time of that I have let a one who writes word well to help me to transcribe again specially, should not have handwriting again the matter that not settled meeting occur. Ask reason that after my original manuscript is thrown in the past, unification is put in a basket basket. Do not think one day, it is indoor to occur fiery feelings. The article of a lot of person pays one of rules. And my article has hidden fortunately to rob, however have been smoked is dark. Luckily I have draft, transcribe once again to send again. Have passed 3 months, article has come out , have gotten tens of first writer's remunerations, this is also the 3th writer's remuneration that I take , excited mood already do not resemble is strong for the first time. Afterwards, I go to sea to go into business , and then think composition inadvertently to contribute writing. Again afterwards, in some years, business some also have smoothly to think of the desire written. So, begin to try to contribute writing , around have also sent some little manuscripts.
That day, again get the writer's One thousands of come the manuscript of word can take the writer's remuneration of 400 Yuan, this number should be not little. However, it is strange. This money for become business person I, unexpectedly not is I the excitation force of composition; Also not is I can buy in the past the standard of how many new books , and but measuring me, can have some of old wines in little gin mill; Or accompanying , friend goes1+1Send corridor ,
Have changed! Money have not changed taste, old wine has not also changed taste, so is my person is changing taste. My mood is mutinying , is one step first , seek what later? I can't seek the composition of same year those stimulated passion. My sight has no a silk passion blazing combustion. Those diligently reflect snow reading spirit to become me long ago memory in river one wipes distant spark. It is to want me to change and have to change in day really He! Knowing the own step of one step to change to settle can't seek the good medicine of one side for disease throughout. Perhaps years do not forgive person, person passes 40, energy is not as good as in the past this is very normal. As the pipe of the ancients Zhong say:"Place matter is shrewd , cannot hide give"
It is gloomy! I have good mood where have gone? I want to burn with these writing weights my good mood at that time. This society as if one side refraction mirror, have confirmed me is a and helpless , I think that this is also the helplessness of society. Have been wrong! Society as if have the train of a long row wheel to roll is forward, I do not take a good mood to squeeze to get on , arrive nobody can pay attention to to leave empty to reserve station I. Long mill Li frustration makes me clear long ago a reason: A heavy rain can not wash a hill; A brick can not build a building; A ant can not eat a elephant; A star can not illuminate the earth.
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